Contrasts of ...

I just came back from a long hard talk with a friend who is in a tough spot at the moment. It was one of those conversations that you just need from time to time ... especially at this time. It centered on the hardships of life, but more importantly it was about love ... love lost ... love found, and the dynamics of it as it passes through relationships.

Those euphoric feelings of bliss contrasted against the painful daggers of hurt and despair. How one should be lucky about finding something so true, and for however long or brief it may be ... at least you've found it. Then ... the torment that accompanies the end of it all ... how it tears at you, and leaves you wondering whether or not it was worth the pain.

In the end ... things unfold as they should, which is something I truly believe. All things good and bad come into and out of your life as they should, and at the exact moment that they should. Things happen for reasons ... people who you never expect to see again magically reappear and people you thought would never leave vanish ...

The point of all this ... is that after experiencing something so great ... the only reason you wouldn't want that again is fear ... fear of losing it, and being lost all over again ...

Tell Me

Tell me, I've got to know.
Tell me, tell me before I go.
Does that flame still burn? Does that fire still glow?
Or has it died out and melted like the snow.
Tell me.
Tell me.

Tell me, what are you focused upon?
Tell me willit come to me after you're gone.
Tell me now with a glance or a sigh
Shall I hold you close?
Or Shall I let you go by?
Tell me.
Tell me.

Is that the heat and the beat of your pulse that I feel?
If it's not that, what is it your're trying to conceal?
Do you have any secrets,? they will only come out in time.
Do you lie in your bed and stare at the stars?
Is your main friend an old acquaintance of ours?
Tell me.
Tell me.

Tell me, Are those rock and roll dreams in your eyes?
Tell me, behind what door your treasure lies.
Ever gone broke in a big way?
Ever done the opposite of what the experts say?
Tell me.
Tell me.

Is this some kind of game that you're playin' with my heart?
How deep must I go, Where do I start?
Do you have any morals?
Do you have any point of view?
Is that a smile I see on your face?
Will it lead me to glory or lead me to disgrace?
Tell me.
Tell me.

Tell me, is that my name in your book?
Tell me, should I come back and take another look?
Tell me the truth, don't you tell me no lies.
Are you anyone some one prays for or cries?
Tell me.
Tell me.


Tell me, I've got to know.
Tell me, tell me before I go.
Does that flame still burn? Does that fire still glow?
Or has it died out and melted like the snow.
Tell me.
Tell me.

Tell me, what are you focused upon?
Tell me willit come to me after you're gone.
Tell me now with a glance or a sigh
Shall I hold you close?
Or Shall I let you go by?
Tell me.
Tell me.

Is that the heat and the beat of your pulse that I feel?
If it's not that, what is it your're trying to conceal?
Do you have any secrets,? they will only come out in time.
Do you lie in your bed and stare at the stars?
Is your main friend an old acquaintance of ours?
Tell me.
Tell me.

Tell me, Are those rock and roll dreams in your eyes?
Tell me, behind what door your treasure lies.
Ever gone broke in a big way?
Ever done the opposite of what the experts say?
Tell me.
Tell me.

Is this some kind of game that you're playin' with my heart?
How deep must I go, Where do I start?
Do you have any morals?
Do you have any point of view?
Is that a smile I see on your face?
Will it lead me to glory or lead me to disgrace?
Tell me.
Tell me.

Tell me, is that my name in your book?
Tell me, should I come back and take another look?
Tell me the truth, don't you tell me no lies.
Are you anyone some one prays for or cries?
Tell me.
Tell me.

-Bob Dylan

vs.

Nothing Even Matters

Now the skies could fall
Not even if my boss should call
The world it seems so very small
'Cause nothing even matters at all

Nothing even matters
Nothing even matters at all
Nothing even matters
Nothing even matters at all

See I don't need no alcohol
Your love makes me feel ten feet tall
Without it I'd go through withdrawal
'Cause nothing even matters at all

Nothing even matters
Nothing even matters at all
Nothing even matters
Nothing even matters at all

These buildings could drift out to sea
Some natural catastrophe
Still there's no place I'd rather be
'Cause nothing even matters to me

Nothing even matters
Nothing even matters to me
Nothing even matters
Nothing even matters to me

You're part of my identity
I sometimes have the tendency
To look at you religiously
'Cause nothing even matters to me

Nothing even matters
Nothing even matters to me
Nothing even matters
Nothing even matters to me

Now you won't find me at no store
I have no time for manicures
With you it's never either or
'Cause nothing even matters no more

Nothing even matters
Nothing it don't matter
Nothing even matters
Nothing even matters no more

Now my team could score
And make it to the Final Four
Just repossess my 4x4
'Cause nothing even matters no more

Nothing even matters
Nothing even matters no more
Nothing even matters
Nothing even matters no more

To me( till fade out)

-Lauryn Hill

As a side note ... these two songs came on in succession as I was thinking about all of ... this .......

Whole Wide World

Another song ... another favorite, mainly because it's so ... happy.

Originally written by the Monkees and covered countless times, but the version I prefer is by Wreckless Eric, and was used in Stranger Than Fiction - one of my favorite movies of all time.

Whole Wide World

When I was a young boy
My mama said to me
There's only one girl in the world for you
And she probably lives in Tahiti

I'd go the whole wide world
I'd go the whole wide world
Just to find her

Or maybe she's in the Bahamas
Where the Carribean sea is blue
Weeping in a tropical moonlit night
Because nobody's told her 'bout you

I'd go the whole wide world
I'd go the whole wide world
Just to find her
I'd go the whole wide world
I'd go the whole wide world
Find out where they hide her

Why am I hanging around in the rain out here
Trying to pick up a girl
Why are my eyes filling up with these lonely tears
When there're girls all over the world

Is she lying on a tropical beach somewhere
Underneath the tropical sun
Pining away in a heatwave there
Hoping that I won't be long

I should be lying on that sun-soaked beach with her
Caressing her warm brown skin
And then in a year or maybe not quite
We'll be sharing the same next of kin

I'd go the whole wide world
I'd go the whole wide world
Just to find her
I'd go the whole wide world
I'd go the whole wide world
Find out where they hide her

It's 2008 ... bring on the pink elephants and dancing pigs!!!

A year older a year wiser ....

It's such a cliche, but in many aspects I can see where it comes from.

As I sit here thinking over the past few weeks I come to a strange but comforting appreciation of where I am, where I've been and what I've come to. Time spent with friends and family especially during times when it's so important to do so, makes you really realize what you have ... or in my case how MUCH I actually have. You forget about the someone you don't have, the things you want, and the places you haven't been ... and you appreciate everything that you do ... for better and worse, you appreciate where you have come to physically, mentally and emotionally.

Maybe it's the dawning of the new year ... maybe it's much needed time away ... or maybe it's just growing up in more than a physical sense ... either way it's 2008 and the word "possibility" makes me happy.