half a$$ing my way through the day ...

I've recently been experimenting with the idea of just not planning. I had reached a point where I felt like everything was always planned, there was always a schedule, always someone to meet, something to do ... and after awhile it felt like a prison. I was constricted by what my little calendar was telling me I had to be doing.

To say it was frustrating would be an understatement. All these other exciting possibilities had to be pushed to the way side as I was forced to focus on some predetermined event that had been scheduled 3 weeks ago. For lack of a better word, it sucked.

I'm not saying that planning ahead is for losers ... but I am saying that when everyone keeps planning event after event ad nauseam, well after awhile you start wishing that there you didn't have as many friends. Either that or your friends weren't so insistent that you attend.

You know what I'm talking about ... it's that friend who rarely comes out, but suddenly they have some special engagement and because of that they guilt you into showing up ... meanwhile you would rather be doing about a million other things, but out of a sense of loyalty you show up anyways. That's ok when it happens once in a blue moon, but when it happens weekend after weekend ... well it starts to wear on you.

So what's the point of all of this? Recently I've adopted a new attitude and so far it seems to be working wonders. In general I just choose specific days not to plan a thing, these days mainly fall on the weekends ... and so far so good. There is a lot to be said for being able to wake up on a Saturday morning ... debate whether or not to go for breakfast or whatever, and then just haphazardly plan your day. I've found that I'm able to somehow tumble into random invites to hockey games, dinners, parties just by going about whatever it is that I wanted to do. On the rare occasions that nothing happens I just go off and do something that I enjoy and that I can do by myself (but that seems to be a rare occurrence).

Anyways ... I guess I just wanted to say that it is possible to fall ass backwards through a semblance of a life with no plans, schedules or appointments, and I for one am glad ... it takes the decision out of indecision ;)